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Monday, May 29, 2006 @ 5:37 AM

Being mentally honest

I am in a wondering state of mind, basically i am doing a personal recap of my past r/ships with a certain type of genetically induced hormonally charged species called girls... whatever that means...

I had practically just had 2 r/ships during my life span of 23 years so far...just 2...not much.

Looking back at r/ship No 1...

It was a rather peaceful r/ship...but long...lasted nearly 4 years...which in the end taught me that good things never last...

While the 2nd r/ship...

Was a short and brutal one...that had me thinking...do nice guys always finished last?

Heck, living in the past will only eat me up...

If i were to be mentally honest to myself seriously right now, i'm having the time of my life...alhamdulillah...my life couldn't have been better with singlehood...which pardon my language...is way better than orgasm and football combined altogether...

Loving Allah...beats loving a girl hands down...loving Allah gives a certain pleasure & joy which i can never find in loving a girl...a kind of love that is hard to be put into words...loving Allah means missing him every minute...His name is mentioned in my heartbeat...instead of dup dup dup...it goes Allah, Allah, Allah...

Feeling the sweetness of iman in my heart...waking up in the middle of the night...prostrating myself to Him...calling out his name...crying out when making doa...asking for His love & forgiveness...when everyone is in La-la land dreaming away...

Hoping that during the day of judgement...my tears will save me...the very same tears that i cried begging & hoping for His love...everlasting love...

While loving Rasulullah...

Rasulullah SAW when he was about to pass away on his death bed...wasn't thinking about himself, nor wealth nor his own family...he kept mentioning...Ummati, Ummati...Ummat ku, Ummat ku...

He was mentioning about us...me and you alike...he cared about me and you...

How do we show our love for Rasulullah? Rasulullah...whom i have never met...saying selawat upon him...hoping for his syafaat during the day of judgement...living his sunnah...breathing his sunnah...

I'd rather be a loser in this life...than be a loser in the Hereafter.

Islam is not just my religion...Islam is my way of life.

Islam is my Everything.

Sunday, May 28, 2006 @ 11:41 AM

Sunday! Sunday! Sunday!

A lazy sunday!

Woke up to a chilly sunday morning, had to drag myself out of bed to do fajr prayers.

Had a long day yesterday.

Had difficulty sleeping, tossing around in bed.

Speaking about yesterday,

Bumped into her yesterday.

The ex-girlfriend.

Yeah, the EX-GIRLFRIEND.

I gotta admit, there is still that tinge of bitterness in me.

But then, it won't do me any good.

I rather cut off my arm and eat it rather than to see your smile.

Awesome! After 5 long years & i mean a very long 5 years, Chris Martin & Co are coming back to town for a gig on the 10th of july. They will drop by sunny old s'pore as part of their Twisted Logic Tour where they will be performing in Hong Kong, Ozzie Land & Japan. I have been contemplating for a week or so since i heard the news that they were coming over, to go or not to go?

I will probably have to do solat istikharah in helping me decide. Tixs are selling at 68 bucks that is the lowest price while the highest is selling at 168 bucks which is explicitly expensive. Anyway after contemplating hard enough, i decided that this is it, i am going & i will go.

Hairi & Amir will most probably be going, maybe i will ask Aiz along. So 68 bucks seems a reasonable price, i did some calculations & what do you know! I could buy myself 37 cup noodles with 68 bucks! Believe it! All in all, i believe Chris & the band plays awfully good music.

Last week was a breeze for me, met up with the guys after classes on saturday. We were going to catch the Da Vinci Code, 1230 AM show at Bugis. I met up with Hairi & Fad at Bedok, waited for them like for 30 minutes & my poor bum was like hurting all the time while sitting at the walkway waiting for those goofballs to arrive.

After they arrived, we headed off to Bugis to meet up with the rest. And as usual, we were the first to arrive, we were supposed to meet up at 6pm & hell, not even one soul was to be seen.

So the waiting game started, we took a seat outside Topshop, Hairi & Fad lighted up their ciggies & started puffing away. I have long quit smoking & i wish they would as well in time to come. We talked smack while waiting, observing people walked by when somebody caught my attention at the corner of my eye.

Man, she was such a doll i tell you now with her short hair & all. I guess she was waiting for someone. I was admiring her from afar i have to admit until she lighted up!

What a turn off. For a girl to smoke, that really turned me off.

She looked adorable & everything until the ciggie came out & she was puffing away like an exhaust pipe. Its just a waste. Well, at least she is smoking ciggies instead of smoking pot. May Allah grant her hidayah to stop smoking. Amin!

Alritey, back to the girl, after she lighted up, she noticed me looking at her. She probably thought i was staring when i was merely observing. So she gave the What On Earth Are You Staring At look at me, so i gave her my I Will Look At Anyone And Anything I Wish To look At in return. Her friend then came & they buzzed off soon after.

After a while, Man arrived followed by Khai & Amir. We then scooted off to Masjid Sultan for Maghrib prayers. We wanted to stay on for Isyak prayers but then most of our tummies were screaming for food at that time so we went off for dinner at SG. Ate our hearts out & i probably could not get from my seat after all that food.

Soon it was 10pm, more than 2 hours to the show, we were thinking if we should go & play a game of pool but we decided against that & ended up going to Mustafa Centre. & the best thing was, we walked all the way there with the notion that we were keeping ourselves fit with all the walking.

Once we reached there, i took a look the watches section & there was this one particular watch that caught my eye. It was nice looking but the price was much more nicer. Its price was 95 bucks, i flipped & i said to myself forget it. Khai was browsing around for a watch as well, but i told him that he was better off buying himself a huge alarm clock knowing how hard it is for him to wake up mornings.

Before we knew it, it was midnight!

We rushed off, made a mad rush for cabs since there was no way we could get back to Bugis by 1230 if we were to walk. Reached Bugis just in the nick of time, thanks to the uncle who drove the cab like some F1 driver who was driving through Sepang.

Anyway, we soon rushed in for the show, cackling in laughter about the mad rush back to Bugis. Everyone else were already sitted tight & there we were like bumbling clowns entering the theatre looking for our seats. The movie was ok for me, having already read the book, i knew what to expect. The only highlight was Audrey Tatou herself who played Sophie, a sight for sore eyes. To cut things short, the show ended nearly 3am, chilled till 330 before we all shared cabs & went home.

The Da Vinci Code is one compelling book to read & so is the movie. It just started me thinking, its utter crap to think that Nabi Isa AS actually had a wife, had children whose bloodline still exists till today. The Jesus we all come to know in Islam adalah seorang nabi, seorang Rasul & he was just a man. He will come down to earth come Judgement Day to help Imam Mahdi fight off Dajjal Lakhnatullah & spread the kalimah La ilaha ilallah Muhammadur rasulullah.

Dan Brown said he wrote the book after much research to tell the truth where the Priory Of Sion which protects the secret of Jesus bloodline does exists while everything else in it has some truth in it. Well, i say Dan Brown was probably on crack when he wrote the book. Or maybe he was hearing voices in his head?

Whenever I look Into the eyes of a Palestinian child, My tears start shedding 4 i can't imagine what he is living through. If I only knew As a Palestinian child, what it would be like to see bombs coming down and not rain, what it would be like to see blood on the ground or to see my older brother covered in blood, If I only knew As a Palestinian child What it would be like To hear the sounds of bombs and helicopters and gun shots day and night. How am I able to describe that fear in the eyes Of a Palestinian child? Looking into their eyes And trying to imagine How their life would be Without shootings and bombs Bursting in air. If I only knew As a Palestinian child.

FA Cup Winners 2006

Pure ecstasy! Utter jubilation! Sweet! Liverpool won the Cup final the hard way coming back from behind then winning it on penalties & 4 God's sake we did not become European champions 4 nutine, did we? Sooner or later i have gotta go & get my heart checked. My heart nearly jumped out of my chest when Stevie G scored that one hell of a screamer from 30 metres out! That was one sweet volley, it had the word GOAL written all behind it. That very goal brought the game into extra time.

Heck, when Carra scored that own goal, i was thinking, hell, it was still early in the game & 4 sure we could have pulled a goal back. But no, instead Reina had 2 spill the damn ball when he should have held on to the ball, allowing Ashton 2 score. I was like fcuk & feeling shitty at e same time. S0 it was 2 nil to West Ham, Cisse pulled a goal back for us b4 half time, then came Stevie's equaliser.

At 2-2, i felt we could go on & win the game but again no it was not 2 be! Konchesky put West Ham back in2 the lead & hell it was meant 2 be a cross but instead he mishit it & the bloody ball ended up at e back o4 e net. Man , i thought Liverpool were goners & it was curtains 4 us. Then came that freaking unbelievale goal. I screamed, my sisters screamed & my dad screamed as well! In fact he was screaming at us 2 keep our tone down & i thought he was screaming bcoz o4 e goal all along.

Then extra time came along, players on both sides were coming up with cramps. Momo was cramping up, even stevie was feeling the strain while West Ham's Harewood could barely run, walking with a limp after a tackle by Momo. It was taking a toll on the players on both sides.

Fcuk, the only person on the pitch who was still up & running after 90 min w/o feeling any fatigue or strain at all must have been the referee! He must have been as fit as a donkey. Then came penalties after extra time came up with zip.

Reina stepped up to the plate & delivered, saving 3 penalty kicks including the last one from Anton Ferdinand! Anton Ferdinand! Rio Ferdinand's bro! No wonder he could not even score from the penalty spot! After that particular save, the Cup was 4 us 2 keep! Joyful joy!

Looking back at the game, Liverpool cannot always win games at the last minute, right? All this last minute goals & mama drama may take a toll on old folks who may be Liverpool fans. Spare a thought 4 those poor folks. Imagine a fan who is in his fifties or sixties suffering a heart attack juz bcoz stevie scores a goal at the death. Man, that is so sad.

I end with this quote,

I seek forgiveness from Allah 4 the lack o4 sincerity when i say i seek the forgiveness o4 Allah.

Come on Liverpool!!! 2 more hours to the FA Cup final & those 2 hours seems like 2 days rather than 2 hours to me. I juz got home, lessons with Ustaz Hassan Saifourizal resumed today at Masjid Al-Ansar after a 1 month break due 2 Rabiulawal. It was a joy seeing his face after a whole month, in fact me & my sisters bought him a gift, a box of Ferrero Rocher, his favourite brand o4 chocz no doubt about it. I nearly burned my Subuh prayers 2dae waking up at 645am & luckily 4 me, dad woke me up. It was probably bcoz i had turned in late the 9te b4 that i nearly did not wake up 4 Subuh. Nevertheless, i headed straight back 2 bed after Subuh, my bed looked tempting, it was as if it was calling me back 2 bed. Maybe i was hearing voices in my head? Geez! Got up later around 10am, did sum stuffz, till 130pm when i started getting ready 4 class. I had a few plans in mind 4 2dae wif the Cup Final being held 2nyte & all. My cuzzin Budi rang me up a few weeks back saying he wanted me 2 tag along & watch the final at a local pub with a couple o4 his friends & 4 ur info, i do not drink alchohol & i could not imagine myself consuming alchohol. As a matter o4 fact i prefer milk. K back & well, i did not get a call or anything frm him so i assume its off. Another plan was 2 catch e final at Chijmes wif Hairi & Amir which i guez must be screening e match LIVE but heck, circumstances did not seem 2 favour me 2dae as Mom & Dad wanted 2 go 2 Johor 2 shop. So my Mom as usual ask me 2 stay at home instead & keep an eye on my sisters as Mom & Dad will probably be back home late. So i do not seem 2 have a choice do i? I have juz got 2 do with watching e Final at home instead. Okies back 2 2dae's events, Dad sent us 2 class b4 heading off 2 Johor. We touched on Tauhid 2dae, learning about Dalil2 Ahlus Sunnah. I'll share it with u guys in another post on wat was it about. Class ended around Asar, did solat jemaah b4 meeting Bik Shidah & Maizatul where afterwards we headed 2 tampines 2 look 4 Mom's Mother's Day gift. Seriously i had no freaking idea wat get 4 Momsy as a gift. Once we reached Tamp, went 2 grab a bite at Long John's. While digging in our food, Bik Shidah publicly declared 2 us tht Maizatul 2dae is officially 2 years 9 months old. Time flys really w/o me realising how big my aunt's baby daughter has grown up. Maizatul really created a din at Long John's playing peek-a-boo, she seems like a little wanker 2 me. After e meal, slowly made our way 2 Metro where we were looking 2 buy Mom's gift. Well, we had a few ideas on wat 2 get her as a gift, Mardhati suggested getting her a cooking wok, after surveying e prices, most o4 it were bloody expensive, kinda unaffordable & way out o4 our less then 50 bucks budget. So we went 2 look 4 vases, with e same results. My sisters & i thought o4 several things tht may be o4 a suitable gift 4 mom such as bags, wallets, novels & so on. I was thinking otherwise, i was think thongs & G-strings 4 my Mom, my thinking was totally way off, thats the cheeky me i guess. Eventually, we decided 2 get Mom a shopping voucher so she could buy herself watever she wanted 4 herself. & anyway, i will probably be treating her & e whole family 2 Seoul Garden nxt week using e 700 bucks tht i got from my Progress Package. To think o4 it its been like 13 days since i received my Progress Package & i have not spend a single cent as yet. Sweet!!! Okie dokie, its like a few minutes b4 e game is going 2 start so i'll end this posting with a little bit o4 sumthing which i learnt 2dae.

Firman Allah SWT

Dan jika ada dua golongan dari orang2 mukmin berperang maka berdamailah antara keduanya. Jika salah satu dari kedua golongan itu berbuat aniaya terhadap golongan lain maka perangilah golongan yang berbuat aniaya itu sehingga golongan itu kembali kepada perintah Allah, jika golongan itu telah kembali kepada perintah Allah, maka damaikanlah antara keduanya dengan adil dan berlaku adillah. Sesungguhnya Allah menyukai orang2 yang berlaku adil. Sesungguhnya orang2 mukmin adalah bersaudara, kerana itu damaikanlah antara kedua saudaramu dan bertakwalah kepada Allah supaya kamu dapat rahmat. Surah Al-Hujurat Ayat 9-10

So with that, Goodbye blog & Hello 2 e Fa Cup Final! Jazakallahu khair!

Assalamualaikum 2 all!

Alhamdulillah! Wee! At long last I got this blog going, after thinking real hard whether I should or not come up with a blog. Whether I should just crap my thoughts here or do something meaningful in using the blog. So I decided that if I were to do this blog, it should be of benefit to those reading it. I gotta admit that i'm no religious scholar but heck we should not be keeping the knowledge that we acquired all to ourselves. Lets share it. I will learn from you & you will do likewise & if you do not agree with stuffz that I put up her, go ahead & tegur me & correct me if I get anything wrong . No worries coz i do not bite but instead i scratch. Allah judges His servants by their deeds & action, you may seem great like some alim in if you are wearing a jubah & serban setinggi gunung mana pon tapi kalau hati busuk bat ape? So I am doing this 4 His sake, only for His Pleasure & to my brothers & sisters reading this. Blogs can be a powerful outlet for Dakwah if its used in the right & proper way. Moving on to other things, i came across this poem about the Quran & masya-Allah! It is a smashing poem, it makes me wanna take wuduk, go grab a Quran & read it right now & then. Heck! So have a good time reading the poem. Immerse yourself in it.

*quip* & no worries coz its in malay 4 ur better understanding. Tee hee!

Apabila Al Quran Berkata

Waktu engkau masih kanak-kanak.............

kau laksana kawan sejatiku

Dengan wudu', Aku kau sentuh

dalam keadaan suci, Aku kau pegang

Aku, kau junjung dan kau pelajari

Aku engkau baca dengan suara lirih atau pun keras setiap hari

Setelah selesai engkau menciumku mesra

Sekarang engkau telah dewasa..............

Nampaknya kau sudah tak berminat lagi padaku...

Apakah Aku bahan bacaan usang yang tinggal sejarah...?

Menurutmu, mungkin aku bahan bacaan yang tidak menambah pengetahuanmu

Atau, menurutmu aku hanya untuk anak kecil yang belajar mengaji.......

Sekarang, Aku tersimpan rapi sekali;

sehingga engkau lupa di mana Aku tersimpan

Aku sudah engkau anggap hanya sebagai pengisi bilik store mu.

Kadang kala Aku dijadikan mas kawin agar engkau dianggap bertaqwa

Atau Aku kau buat penangkal untuk menakuti iblis dan syaitan

Kini Aku lebih banyak tersingkir, dibiarkan dalam kesendirian ,

kesepian.

Di dalam almari, di dalam laci, aku engkau pendamkan.

Dulu...pagi-pagi...surah-surah yang ada padaku engkau baca beberapa

halaman.

Di waktupetang, Aku kau baca beramai-ramai bersama temanmu di

surau.....

Sekarang...seawal pagi sambil minum kopi...engkau baca surat khabar

dahulu

Waktu lapang engkau membaca buku karangan manusia

Sedangkan Aku yang berisi ayat-ayat yang datang dari Allah Azzawajalla,

Engkau engkau abaikan dan engkau lupakan...

Waktu berangkat kerja pun kadang engkau lupa baca pembuka

surah2ku (Bismillah).

Di dalam perjalanan engkau lebih asyik menikmati musik duniawi

Tidak ada CD yang berisi ayat Allah yang terdapat di dalam keretamu

Sepanjang perjalanan,radiomu selalu tertuju ke stasyen radio kesukaanmu

Mengasyikkan.

Di meja kerjamu tidak ada Aku untuk kau baca sebelum kau mulai kerja

Di Komputermu pun kau putar musik favoritmu

Jarang sekali engkau putar ayat-ayatku.........

E-mail temanmu yang ada ayat-ayatku pun kau abaikan

Engkau terlalu sibuk dengan urusan dunia mu

Benarlah dugaanku bahawa engkau kini sudah benar-benar hampir melupaiku

Bila malam tiba engkau tahan bersekang mata berjam-jam di depan TV.

Menonton siaran telivisyen

Di depan komputer berjam-jam engkau betah duduk

Hanya sekedar membaca berita murahan dan gambar sampah

Waktupun cepat berlalu.........

Aku semakin kusam dalam laci-laci mu

Mengumpul debu atau mungkin dimakan hama

Seingatku, hanya awal Ramadhan engkau membacaku kembali

Itupun hanya beberapa lembar dariku.

Dengan suara dan lafadz yang tidak semerdu dulu

Engkaupun kini terangkak-rangkak ketika membacaku

Atau waktu kematian saudara atau taulan mu

Bila engkau di kubur sendirian menunggu sampai kiamat tiba

Engkau akan diperiksa oleh para malaikat suruhanNya

Apakah TV, radio ,hiburan atau komputer dapat menolong kamu?

Yang pasti ayat-ayat Allah s.w.t yang ada padaku menolong mu

Itu janji Tuhanmu, Allah s.w.t

Sekarang engkau begitu enteng membuang waktumu...

Setiap saat berlalu...

Dan akhirnya.....

kubur yang setia menunggu mu...........

Engkau pasti kembali, kembali kepada Tuhanmu

Jika Aku engkau baca selalu dan engkau hayati...

Di kuburmu nanti....

Aku akan datang sebagai pemuda gagah nan tampan.

Yang akan membantu engkau membela diri

Dalam perjalanan ke alam akhirat.

Dan Akulah "Al-Qur'an",kitab sucimu

Yang senantiasa setia menemani dan melindungimu.

Peganglah Aku kembali.. .. bacalah aku kembali aku setiap hari.

Karena ayat-ayat yang ada padaku adalah ayat-ayat suci.

Yang berasal dari Allah Azzawajalla

Tuhan Yang Maha Pengasih dan Maha Pemurah

Yang disampaikan oleh Jibril melalui Rasulmu

Keluarkanlah segera Aku dari almari, lacimu.......

Letakkan aku selalu di depan meja kerjamu.

Agar engkau senantiasa mengingat Tuhanmu.

Sentuhilah Aku kembali...

Baca dan pelajari lagi Aku....

Setiap datangnya pagi, petang dan malam hari walau secebis ayat

Seperti dulu.... Waktu engkau masih kecil

Di surau kecil kampungmu yang damai

Jangan aku engkau biarkan aku sendiri....

Dalam bisu dan sepi....

*Sobs* the poem had that kind of effect on me. Alritey, up next are 7 tips for improving your relationship with the Quran.

Are you one of those people who rarely touches the Quran? Or do you read daily, but you do not find it is having the impact on you that it should? Whatever the case may be, these are some simple tips that can help you connect with the Quran.

1. Before you touch it, check your heart

The key to really benefiting from the Quran is to check your heart first, before you even touch Allah's book. Ask yourself, honestly, why you are reading it. Is it to just get some information and to let it drift away from you later? Remember that the Prophet Muhammad (peace and blessings be upon him) was described by his wife as a "walking Quran": in other words, he didn't just read and recite the Quran, he lived it.

2. Do your Wuduk (ablution)

Doing your Wuduk is good physical and mental preparation to remind you that you are not reading just another book. You are about to interact with God, so being clean should be a priority when communicating with Him.

3. Read only 5 minutes everyday

Too often, we think we should read Quran for at least one whole hour. If you are not in the habit of reading regularly, this is too much. Start off with just five minutes daily. If you took care of step one, Insya Allah (God willing), you will notice that those five minutes will become ten, then half an hour, then an hour, and maybe even more!

4. Make sure you understand what you've read

Five minutes of reading the Quran in Arabic is good, but you need to understand what you're reading. Make sure you have a good translation of the Quran in the language you understand best. Always try to read the translation of what you've read that day .

5. Remember, the Quran is more interactive than a CD

In an age of interactive CD-Roms and computer programs, a number of people think books are passive and boring. But the Quran is not like that. Remember that when you read Quran, you are interacting with Allah. He is talking to you, so pay attention.

6. Don't just read, listen too

There are now many audio cassettes and CDs of the Quran, a number of them with translations as well. This is great to put on your Mp3 or your car's CD or stereo as you drive to and from work. Use this in addition to your daily Quran reading, not as a replacement for it.

7. Make Dua (supplication)

Ask Allah to guide you when you read the Quran. Your aim is to sincerely, for the love of Allah, interact with Him by reading, understanding and applying His blessed words. Making Dua to Allah for help and guidance will be your best tool for doing this.

Its a rather long post so hopefully you folks find it berfaedah & put it to good use hence i end the post with something from Khutbah Terakhir Rasulullah SAW that was delivered on the 9th of Zulhijjah at Arafah.......Sesungguhnya aku tinggalkan kepada kamu dua perkara yang sekiranya kamu berpegang teguh dan mengikuti kedua-duanya nescaya kamu tidak akan tersesat selama-lamanya. Itulah Al-Quran dan Sunnahku.

Wasalam *waves waves*